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Toozin

2016-02-01 05:36:40 pm

Not impossible

just highly unlikely

Just go to a doctor and say that sometimes you get nervous on airplanes.

Warning: may result in prostate exam.

Opium

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Opium: 2016-02-01 05:37:29 pm

2016-02-01 05:37:17 pm

Xanax is fun but I think it really messes people up if they take it regularly.

Opium

2016-02-01 05:38:05 pm

lol she's probably already on it

arkarian

2016-02-01 05:38:49 pm

red chamber dream

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Xanax is fun but I think it really messes people up if they take it regularly.

haha opium you always have the best opinions :)

Opium

2016-02-01 05:38:50 pm

I guess I can't say if it messes people up who take it regularly. I'm just going by two people I know.

Opium

2016-02-01 05:41:30 pm

lol well other benzodiazepines seem to make people crazier too. For me it would be like being drunk 24/7. After a while you wouldn't remember what the real you was even like.

Opium

2016-02-01 05:42:55 pm

They just make me to go sleep anyways. I think people who really need them actually get an energy boost from them.

Opium

2016-02-01 05:43:55 pm

I have a bottle of valium around here somewhere. If I take one of those I pretty much pass out.

ryu

2016-02-02 02:38:24 am

cool

Poision Envy

2016-02-02 05:05:08 am

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I really wanna get some adderall again. But it's expensive to get it illegally and I'm nervous to go to the doctors because they'd judge me and think I'm lying.

ryu

2016-02-02 05:09:50 am

What, you want to treat your ADHD?

ryu

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ryu: 2016-02-02 05:10:36 am

2016-02-02 05:10:27 am

You're 20 years too old for that ;->

Poision Envy

2016-02-02 05:18:24 am

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I don't care about "treating" it, but being able to have great focus, concentration, and feeling motivated about something is nice.

ryu

2016-02-02 05:23:11 am

Concentration is a skill you can train

Poision Envy

2016-02-02 05:26:01 am

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I mean I know I'm too late for it to be actually useful. Really fucking wish I'd have talked to doctors more in highschool because it really fucked me up in the long run not being able to do homework and not knowing why. Then my confidence getting shot from that, depression, more depression, then just fucking why. Not even sure how I managed to get back up as far as I have.

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Concentration is a skill you can train

it's definitely easier for some than others. I tried for 4 years pretty fucking hard and got nowhere, and it's one of those things that if you don't learn while you're developing then it's much harder later on

ryu

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2016-02-02 05:31:12 am

I think you're getting way too hung up about that stuff. I never did my homework in school either, was barely able to pay attention and stuff. Yet I managed to pass a good number of university exams.

You just need something you really like to work on.

Not like I'm a master of diligence and motivation, but I say you only have a problem if you can't do anything to sustain your well-being. If you can get up in the morning and do a job, you're not depressed enough to be a medical case.

Poision Envy

2016-02-02 05:38:07 am

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Yeah I mean there's times I get oddly motivated and can focus on something for a few hours, especially when I'm working with other people or friends. But the vast majority of the time I can't, even if I love what I'm working on and really excited about it. The only time I can really focus and work on something is if someone else is there with me working on it with me and focusing on it with me, pretty much holding my hand and giving me motivation.

And yeah no for the third year of highschool every morning was just wishing I'd die instead of having to get up and deal with the day. Then finally senior year came around and I literally just didn't go to school after the first two weeks because of how depressed I was. The only reason I cared about waking up for the last two or three years was because I have a girlfriend and want to be a good person at least for her. I'm not a good person and I'm not mentally sound.

ryu

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ryu: 2016-02-02 05:41:20 am

2016-02-02 05:39:43 am

Ok that sounds bad. You shouldn't be afraid of going to the docs for medication in that case.

Toozin

2016-02-02 05:47:14 am

Not impossible

just highly unlikely

That sounds scarily like what happened to me in high school, Poision. I missed half a semester because I couldn't get out of bed. I went to a doctor and got some pills and got back on track. Managed to catch up my work and passed grade 11 without repeating anything thanks to the understanding of my teachers.

Get yourself help man, you'll be thankful you did in the long run.

DJGrenola

2016-02-02 05:47:54 am

another day, another trip to the DIY shop for another thing I've run out of

Poision Envy

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Poision Envy: 2016-02-02 05:49:32 am

2016-02-02 05:48:24 am

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yeah, thanks guys. I mean I know it's something I put off because of insurance problems, other medical things conflicting, etc etc. I haven't really had an excuse this last month of not going, except for ironically the lack of motivation.

Actually I'm going to set an alarm on my phone and have a pretty serious talk about this with my friend too. She's pretty supportive of this sort of thing and there's a lot more to it on my mind than I've posted, so I think it'll help to have a serious talk with her about it.

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another day, another trip to the DIY shop for another thing I've run out of

What are ya working on?

DJGrenola

2016-02-02 05:48:31 am

heh it was weird, when my father was dead and my mother was dying, school was the only thing that kept me going

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DJGrenola: 2016-02-02 05:50:12 am

2016-02-02 05:49:58 am

I'm repainting the kitchen, although so far all I've done is paint the ceiling, and have instead spent most of the time clearing up the mess made by whoever was responsible for painting it last time

fuckers apparently don't know what masking tape is

Poision Envy

2016-02-02 05:50:48 am

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putting on masking tape and then taking it off was my favorite part about painting. Feels sooooo good to peel it off and see a nice, perfect line

DJGrenola

2016-02-02 05:51:05 am

yeah beautiful isn't it