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2015-12-16 09:18:01 pm

red chamber dream

three hours of survivor tonight ... my body is ready

2015-12-18 01:53:45 pm

Being sick really sucks. Been sick for days. If I vomit one more time, I swear my spine is going to snap. I've pulled all of the muscles in my lower back from heaving and every time I go to heave again it fucking hurts so bad that I scream and puke at the same time. Shoot me, please.

ryu

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ryu: 2015-12-18 03:43:30 pm

2015-12-18 03:43:10 pm

That sounds horrible. Get well soon!

Opium

2015-12-19 01:25:14 pm

Thanks. Went to the ER lastnight and got hydrated, plus got a powerful anti-nausea medicine that's really helping. I told the doctor the reason why I was sick and he suggested admitting me - to a fucking rehab! I told him thanks but no thanks. I'm sick because I'm drying out on purpose. I have plenty of drugs to keep getting high but I'm abstaining from them on purpose. If I was inacapable of doing that then I would consider a rehab. He didn't seem to grasp what I was telling him. In any case, I'm 10 days into it and I'm pretty sure I'm over the worst of it. I should be much much better by February.

ryu

2015-12-20 03:26:59 am

Drying out on purpose? wtf?

Are you getting off some drug and it's a side effect from the abstinence of it?

Opium

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Opium: 2015-12-21 03:14:26 pm

2015-12-21 03:13:32 pm

Yeah, I'm weaning off of opioids. Vomiting isn't even the worst withdrawal symtpom, but it's made much worse by the fact that I have to take a bunch of prescription drugs for other issues and in order to do that I need to eat, but I definitely have no appetite while I'm in withdrawal. So I have to take all these pills on a nearly empty stomach, then the next morning I wake up incredibly nauseated and stay that way all day. The worst symptom is the coldsweats. I feel like I'm on fire so I start sweating profusely, then I feel like I'm in a freezer and can't stop shaking. Other fun stuff is diarrhea, runny nose/eyes, excessive sneezing, and excessive yawning. The yawning has my TMJ all flared up. It sucks. The only time I feel comfortable is in a hot bath.