it's still kind of weird even after living here for a few years. lighting up in the stadium with security literally right beside me, and they don't care. takes some getting used to for sure
someone is supposed to be visiting from london but I don't know if he's going to show up, I'm supposed to be going to some party in town but I haven't been told where it is, then something is going on at sam's this evening, and garry was talking about doing something but I haven't heard anything from him either
so uh, apparently because I'm a seasonal employee, if I work more than 5 hours I get paid overtime hours. I just got my check, I didn't work much last week, only 15 hours of regular work hours, but then I got 6 hours of paid over time. So literally only working for 4 or 5 days in the last two weeks, I get a $250 check after taxes. Shit's not bad.
Some days like today I feel too paralyzed by the stress of work the next day that I feel like I can't start or enjoy anything fun in the present. I just veg out watching Twitch and anxiously wait for the clock to advance more and more upon my shrinking free time. Would be really nice if I felt like playing a video game or reading or something. But generally I have to be already at work and engaged in activities I'm obligated to do. Most of my chosen hobbies only seem appealing instead of, rather than in addition to, work these days.
Could be plain ol' depression for all I know given the persistence of it. Really not a fan of self-diagnosis though, and I don't tend to experience other symptoms of it (not that I notice).
I just have it happen a lot where I get bored beyond belief and no potential cure seems better than the disease.
It's gotten a lot better for me since having a job of some sort though, I'll say that much. Used to be I had 0% motivation for 99% of activities 100% of the time. Now it's more like 10%/75%/50% respectively.
In other news it just started raining really hard to the point where the power flickered off for a moment. Resetting all the digital clocks in the kitchen is the most excitement I've had yet!
Got a trainee job as a technical account manager with good propects to get a full position after 6 months. Considering that I have no noteworthy job experience or degrees whatsoever I'm really happy about this.
Can't wait to finally move the fuck out in a few months!!!