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2015-11-22 04:21:08 am

yeah that's what infatuation does to you

2015-11-22 04:21:47 am

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like, this doesn't just apply to this one relationship, but to my entire life in general. Every friendship and relationship I've had, I finally realize now why things got shitty. It's not because they thought I wasn't as good of a person as their other friend, but simply because different people give different experiences

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:22:06 am

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and yeah, it's just weird. I dont know why I couldn't understand this sooner. I really really don't. like it seems so basic and obvious now

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:22:19 am

nobody wants to spend 100% of their time with the same person

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:22:57 am

I made the same mistake with my university girlfriend, mainly because my mother had just died and so I didn't have a family and desperately needed someone to be there for me 100% of the time

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:23:15 am

course you can't make that demand of a 19 year old, it just doesn't work

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:23:30 am

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yeah, and it's even worse in my case cause she's younger

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:24:21 am

do you know that weezer song "no one else", that's basically a song about what you're talking about

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:25:02 am

just to start tossing the pop culture references in there

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:25:50 am

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wow, yeah, that'e exactly it

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:29:19 am

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there's still two things that might happen now though. Either, A, she's going to be happy that I realize this now, and is still willing to forgive me and be with me. Or, B, I've messed up one too many times and she can't bring herself to be with me anymore. I have high hopes it's A, but if it is B, I'll have learned a good life lesson I guess.

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:32:47 am

I'd move on if I were you but it's not my life

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:34:13 am

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eh, I mean, it's ~probably~ going to be the case that I have to. but on the other hand, the only thing that tarnished it was because of what I was doing. The first two and a half years were fucking amazing, but it was also a time when SHE didn't have any friends, so this never came up

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:34:36 am

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so I may as well try my best, right?

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:35:05 am

it's your call dude, there are no right or wrong answers

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:36:51 am

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yeah, at least this time around I'm bracing for the worst, and I have a backup plan.

It's kinda weird, but I have a good friend in Canada. He has a nice tech job, so I can probably get something through him. I also have a nice friend up there, she's single and not very happy about it, so hey, something might work. But for the time being, I'm focused again on pursuing education, and taking this knowledge with me to hopefully make something better

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:37:08 am

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but if it does work out, that's cool too, I still have a plan to pursue other stuff at least.

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:37:35 am

just don't get into the mindset where being with someone is the most important thing ever because it really isn't

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:38:15 am

society doesn't help because it is constantly pushing this bullshit on you

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:39:12 am

this idea that you have to pair up or you're a "loser"

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:39:19 am

fuck that

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:40:55 am

it comes up all the time

"LOL i bet he's never had a girlfriend", like that's something you ought to be ashamed of for some reason

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:41:44 am

if you asked why that's so shameful I doubt many people would be able to produce any vaguely credible answer

DJGrenola

2015-11-22 04:43:02 am

it's nice but it's not mandatory, focus on yourself, girls are a secondary concern

Poision Envy

2015-11-22 04:43:23 am

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yeah, that's something I've learned from all this as well. Even if she does take me back, I at least have that knowledge too